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      Kris Marker
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      Marcus Beri ponders how difficult it will be for him to find a life partner after serving time in prison. 

      How do I find my forever? My life partner? How will I ever be accepted by a woman with morals, values, good upbringing, and not of this life? Is it possible?

      Every single day, I try to figure out a way to tell a woman who I will attempt to make my own how I have taken a life and nearly succeeded in taking another. How can someone possibly understand and trust what my state of mind was like in the moment of this magnitude? How could they possibly want to be attached to such controversy, such evil? How can I explain how long I was in prison for? What I had to do to survive?

      If by the grace of God a woman can look past this, how can her mother and father ever allow their daughter, their baby girl, to associate or even breed with such scum?

      It doesn’t matter what I accomplish, what accolades I acquire during or after this process. I will always have the bitter titles of murderer, thief, felon, prisoner, liar and manipulator placed upon my name.

      What should I do? Should I say on the first date, “Oh hey, I just thought you should know. I killed someone and almost killed someone else, then I stole from them. So I had to do many years in prison, but you can trust me and I won’t hurt you.”

      I would run so fucking far away from someone who told me that, it’s not even funny. I’m a literal red flag emoji.

      Should I wait to tell them so I can have them get to know me first for the real me, and not for the worst mistake of my entire existence?

      Either way, I’m fucked. I lose if I’m upfront, and I lose if I wait to tell them because they’ll think I “tricked them” or “lied to them” in furtherance of manipulation.

      All it takes is a Google search and I’m toast. The news used me for click bait. Used me for views on a stupid show full of puppets and lies with a side of how shitty the upcoming week’s forecast is.

      One mistake that will haunt me for the rest of my life. The rest of the life of whatever woman decides she can handle being dragged through the mud. The rest of our potential childrens’ lives. What on earth have I done, and how will I overcome this?


      Marcus Beri #734840
      Oaks Correctional Facility
      1500 Caberfae Hwy
      Manistee, MI 49660

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